When frustration drives you apart.

Sorry, I just can't handle this. I'm too frustrated, disappointed and sad. I need time, I need strength. You know what? I told you that its not you who makes me feel this way, well actually, that's not quite true. I'm actually feel very very very disappointed in you knowing that you don't care about me AT ALL. It's not that I'm mad or hate you, but I do feel you're not so excited to see me. I don't even feel any effort made by you to see me. Yeah, you gave suggestion to me, that's true. But once I told you that there might not be any chance for us to meet, you don't even trying to please me or say something like "sorry, i'll make it up to you".  All you can say is just "alright, if that's what you wish". How could you say that? You don't even trying, you just give up like that. & another conclusion you made is just "I don't even blaming you for not having the chance to meet".  Do you think I do not understand what you meant? You're WRONG. I do understand that cruel statement of yours. Instead of you pleasing my heart, you asked me to not blame you right? How fantastic is that? Is that how you treat your woman after disappointing her? That's all you got? Wow. No wonder I'm TOO HAPPY now. I just don't understand. After all I said, especially in the message, all you got is to be quiet? You don't even reply them. Until I'm the one who have to call you and pampered you instead. Not just pampered but I apologized too. You are just too amazing isn't? I dunno why but seriously, I'm disappointed in you. You are my major disappointment. I just don't have the guts to say it to you because you're having your finals. I don't wanna burden you with this matter, so I decided to let it out in this blog of mine. I'm sorry. You just have to wait until this hurt cured. Take care.

Hancur sudah harapan. Rosak sudah impian.

Sedihnya hati biar Allah yang tahu. Haih. Dah la jarang jumpa, jauh pulak tu. Besarnya dugaan tu, Allah yang tentukan, aku tahu, aku sedar. Tapi kadang kala seksanya tak tertanggung dek badan. Kuat dan beratnya cabaran tu tak dapat aku tampung. Menangis siang malam, tak kering air mata, mata membengkak, celarunya hati, risaunya, sedihnya, kecewanya sangat kuat. Aku tak mampu berkata apa melainkan redha. Redha dan pasrah dgn segala ketentuanNya. Mungkin bukan kali ini, harap dimasa depan kita berjumpa lagi. Insyaallah.