Last day.

Last day in Kuala Lumpur. Beratnya hati nak melepaskan, berat lagi kaki nak melangkah, apatah lagi beg yang nak dipikul. Hahaaa. Im so gonna miss you Kuala Lumpur. I wont be long. I'll try to come back asap okay? I love you lots <3 Take careeeee. Do miss me yeahhh! :') Toodles. As salam.

My almost twin! :)

SITI NUR NADIA BINTI M*** R**** W**

I accidently found this name in the list of people in UiTM Seri Iskandar that have succeed to be in UiTM's accommodation. Whoever you are, I just wanna tell you that we almost got the same name. Its just that you dont have a H behind your Nadia which I got one for my name. Aaawwwww. For 19 years of my life, I never found anybody that has got the same name as me. This is my first time. A lil bit excited hahaa. Well wherever you are, I just wanna wish you goodluck for your diploma/degree :) May Allah bless people who got the same name as us. Hehee. & others too :) 

When you're gone.

Since today is the first day you leave me, I'll count the days until the day you return. If you dont come back, then I know you're gone forever. Though, the counting will still go on until I die. Starts from 25th May 2011. Imma go to sleep now. Nitey nite wherever you are. Sweetdream babyboyy :)

Getting weaker.

Im getting weaker, weaker and weaker. 

I see you everywhere. I hear you from every angle. I feel you every minute. 

Everytime my phone rings, I'll be hoping it was you but it was not. 

Everytime I open facebook, I'll be looking and searching for your name thru the fb chat list and also the fb search bar, hoping that your name would appear but there wasnt any sign, no results at all.
Everytime I drive my car, it reminds me of the nickname I gave you.

Everytime the clock reaches 11 o'clock, I'll keep on watching my phone, hoping for messages such as "Hello babe", "Hai dear", "Dear :)", "Hello my baby girl" to appear, but there wasnt any. 

Everytime I wanna sleep, I'll read our old messages over and over again just to remind me that I've lost a great guy.

& while Im doing all these, my tears will slowly drop down through my cheeks, my eyes are shut tightly and my mouth will start whispering your name as if Im reaching out to you, but when I open my eyes, I realize, you have really gone.

Im really sorry if I've made you pissed off and angry. I never thought things would turn out to be like this. I love you so much. Though you didnt know this, I dont care anymore. Even if people think Im crazy, I dont care anymore. I love you.

A lost is something real but something that we cant handle.

I'll be waiting, always.

I'll wait.

I'll wait. Thats my promise. No matter how much you hate me, I dont care. I'll wait. No matter how long it takes for you to come back, I dont care. I'll wait. Even if you wouldnt come back, I dont care. I'll still wait. I made up this mistake, I'll be responsible for it. No one can take this love away. I just hope if one day you found someone else, pls do remember that you used to know a girl named siti nur nadiah. Remembering her name would be enough. & pls, do think about her. Remember that she's waiting for you. & in case you would wanna look for her again, just be sure that she'll be there for you because she is waiting. Just believe in that. OMG. You're making me crazy. I see your face everywhere, I swear. I dont know where to find you. I dont know how to reach you. Please come back. I need you dear. Please. Im not gonna be able to do anything besides waiting. Pls come backk. Im sorry. Im so so sorry :(

Sorry for a thousand times.

You may not hear me. You may not feel me. You may not see me. You may not care. You may know nothing about this. I dont care. I still want to say this.

Im sorry if I made you think Im a goddess which I never thought I am.

Im sorry if I didnt believe you everytime the messages didnt sent.

Im sorry if I get angry everytime you dissapeared in the middle of texting.

Im sorry if I get pissed off everytime you didnt reply my private messages.

Im sorry if I hurt your feelings by posting status too.

Im sorry if I made you think Im bored with you which I never did.

Im sorry if I get angry everytime you deleted posts/comments because I thought Im disgraceful to you.

Im sorry if I think you're repeating your mistakes when I was so stupid to realize that you're fixing them. 

Im sorry if I have been the first woman in your life who sucks.

Im sorry if I rush into a relationship because I didnt know you care more about love after marriage.

Im sorry if I cant wait to hear your love confession as my present because I accidently love you so much.

Im sorry if I have not say that I love you because Im too afraid.

Im sorry if I have been a jerk to you. Im sorry for being impatient.

You're gone. You're gone for real. Guess what? I need you back. Im sorry. I really really am. I dont know how to say it to you. I cant even contact you. I miss you so much. I love you so much. Please come back. I dont want you to leave. I dont want you to let me go. Please. Dont do this :( The only person I want is you. The only person I need is you. The only person I love is you. The only person I care about is you. The only person Im afraid to lose the most is you. Do you hear me? Do you feel me? Can you see the tears? No of course you dont. You're gone and I can do fucking nothing. Im sorry. Please. I need to tell you that I love you. I still didnt get the opportunity to let it out. Please come backkk. I want to tell you. I really really wanted to tell you.